As we near closer to our first premiere of "Waiting for You" (see Festivals for date) I sit reflecting on the whole process of bringing "Waiting for You" to fruition. I sit smiling from the kismet energy that has brought our premier one year to the month of our shoot. It feels complete.
I think about the first few days that I decided to make the commitment to shoot my first short film...everyone told me "pick your shoot date or it will never get done." I knew they were right. If I didn't commit to dates I would allow everything and everyone to come between me and the completion of this project. However, once I picked the dates, the panic set it.
Were to start? My mind got bombarded with the overwhelming to-do lists of an independent filmmaker. After a few deep breaths and several rhetorical conversations with my, dear, patient, husband I knew my first stop was finding a producer.
For me this was a tricky concept because I was coming into directing as an actor and had so much still to learn about the whole production side of things. I didn't feel quite ready to lead the troops to battle, at least not without a trusted adviser, who had been to war many times himself. I needed and adviser willing to guide my leadership without mapping out my strategies for me. I needed someone who could hold my vision when fear and doubt seeped in; guiding me gently back on course and encouraging my strength while nurturing my weaknesses.
Cut to my producer, Jeremy Jed Hammel, aka the Jedster. Jed not only made me feel like I knew what I was doing when I felt I didn't, he continually and with great enthusiasm, inspired the energy behind my vision. He made sure that he and I did not waver or settle for anything less than that vision. He anchored me when I felt adrift and made sure at all times that we stay on course. He had an answer for every question and I never had to ask twice for anything to be done. He left me with no doubt about the mechanics of the project which left me free to focus on the story, style and actors.
Basically he made me feel safe in a very unsafe environment and I needed that on my first go. I was taking many artist chances with this piece, I knew it, and Jed gave me the space to journey through and commit to my choices.
Needless to say our shoot was flawless, save for moments with my diva Carlo (See blog below), and the whole experience was like a magnificent dream. This could never have been accomplished without Mr. Jeremy Jed Hammel.